The letter from my heart

I just wanna cry, but I can't
I'm in so much pain till I can't feel nothing but this hurtful feeling
I need my medicine
The medicine to remove my pain
The medicine to get back my smile

I just wanna cry, but I can't
I'm trying to watch saddest movie but tears don't come out
I'm trying to watch funniest movie but laugh is too hard to do
I need my medicine
The medicine to make me feel better
The medicine that never hurts me

I'm sorry that I ignored you today
It's not that I don't love you
But the pain in my heart makes me can't think about good things
It blocked my sight
It shut my mouth
It even closed my ear




I want to hide all of this
So nobody can't see
I want to act strong
So everybody will think everything is okay
I want to close my eyes, but I have to see everything
I want to hear nothing, but I have to listen these things
I want to die, but I have to continue living

God is punishing me
Because I am starting to walk away from His path
Maybe I deserve it

I will go to somewhere to find my medicine
I promise it won't take too long
Just wait for me,
Because when you found me for the second time,
You will find the brand new person who deserve to accept your love

From the one who deeply love you,